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rinie genap 9 ari ayh aq kt hosptal..n aq still x prcye n msih trsentap..aq rse sbersalah sgtt2..T_T 2 ari b4 ayh aq msuk hspital, aq ad bengang ngn ayh aq sbb ayh aq ckp xdpt nk antr blq u, byk kejer kne settle kn..aq x tego pn ayh aq n mngelak dri jmpe dy..tp lpas 2..aq tego bleq coz aq twu brdose xtego ayh sndri..ari kjadian..my mum call uma n adq yg agkt..mse dga adq ckp kt hosptal mner, truk ker..aty aq mmg da xsdap da..after that..adq gtwu mk soh bce yassin n wt solat hjat.. ya Allah!engkau jer twu cmner prsaan aq mse tu..ktorg sumew trus solat n adq aq bce yasin..tyme solat 2 act, aq da mleleh da..aq xleh kwal emosi aq..adq bongsu aq trnmpak plk aq mnangis..sbb nk cover pnyea psal..aq mara dy msuk blik aq n aq pn trus tdow..aq twu..adq bongsu aq pn sdih..sbb dy xbyk ckp pn aritu..slalu nyer dy la yg kuat mmbebel n byk bndew nk ctew..huhu..bler tregt bleq b4 ayh aq msuk hosptl..ayh aq der ckp nk wt2 skit coz nk amk mc smtew2 nk antr aq blq u..ttbe ayh aq btul dpt mc..bkn seari 2..berbulan2..uwaaaa!!!mse mlwat ayh kt hosptal..ayh ctew ap doktor ckp..errr..aq mmg x skew dga bab2 darah, tulang ptah sni sner, tulang trmsuk ke dlm o watever..tgk keadaan ayh, aq x twu nk ckp aq..b4 bleq..aq slam ayh..ayh still leh trsenyum n say sorry coz x dpt antr bleq..ya Allah..mse 2 aq rse nk mnangis gler!tp xkn nk nangis dpn ayh..mzty ayh aq lgy sdih kn..so aq nangis kt uma..huhu..blq arau..aq call mk aq n my mum said ayh da tuka ker hosptl serdang..n nk msuk kn besi xtwu bler leh wt..huhu..tu mkner nyew lgy lmew la ayh aq kt hospital n lgy lmew la mk aq kne jge ayh aq kt hospital..:( spnjg ayh aq kt hosptal..mk aq yg jge ayh..aq tyer x tukar2 ker ngn abg o adq aq..but my mum ckp xper..ssah klu org laen jge..sayu gler aty aq dga..kuat,tabah n besar nyer pengorbanan mk aq..da la b4 2 my mom kner gy kursus 3 bulan..seari b4 abz kursus ayh msuk hospital n mk trus jge ayh kt hospital..aq yg bru sblan kner uruskn uma da mrungut2,da bebel2..but my mom..?huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuuuuu! ya Allah ya tuhanku..kau permudahkan lah segla urusan hambamu ya Allah..Engkau kuat kn lah hati hambaMu menerima n mengharungi sgla ujian n cabaran yg Engkau beri.....

kdg2..ktew perlu menangis
dlm hidup kitew..mnangis
dgn ap ksalahn yg tlah ktew
buat.. muhasabah dri agar
ktew tdak terpesong dri
landasan..